Press Play

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I’ve had a project idea in my head for months, maybe even longer than that. But for the life of me, I haven’t been able to start it. There are a million things and a million reasons and a million excuses, but the truth is, anxiety gets the better of me. And it happens over and over.

The idea comes, the thoughts get written down, and then the wall goes up. It feels like a physical restraint against my brain and my limbs and won’t let me move forward. The wall says things like “you’re not good enough”, “where will you shoot”, “you don’t have that kind of time or money”, “you’re a mom, your time for projects is over”, “nobody will want to shoot with you”. And that’s just the tip of it.

This happens over and over, and it takes quite a bit of energy to get over the wall, or when it’s really bad, to break through it. But when I get through it, and I can press play, I finally start to realize that I am good enough, I can make any location work, and being a mom doesn’t stop me from having my own dreams. I can press play. I need to press play. I need to move forward.

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